sundays are usually my day of cleaning and rest, but that's not to say that the rest of my week is full of exciting things to do. i watch my younger sisters one day a week and do website and photo work as an independent contractor, but other than that, my life is quite static. i'm in a rut right now, figuring out my health situation and where i want to live (sanfran? portland? seattle? la?), so as i look for jobs, i also have a lot of trepidation about rushing into things. my current friend situation is a bit sad as well, as all of my closest ones (save for justin) have moved away. i'm loathe to make new ones because i can be terribly unfriendly as it is, and i'd hate to spend all that time making friends i'll have to leave.
on my more motivated days, i dress up for the aspirational value -- dress how i want to live! hip, urban, indie! -- but this is not the norm. on days i stay in, i just wear baggy tees, my lavender fuzzy bathrobe, or simply some knickers. the result is that i am either overdressed or underdressed.
some days i feel bad about this, as if i'm not living the total design approach i mentioned, where everything has some aesthetic quality to it. i feel like even my slob clothes should be in some way stylish, and since they aren't, i get down on myself.
i guess i'm in such an early stage of my identity that how i primarily identify myself to others is purely superficial, as in, "if i don't dress the way i normally do, i'll be less of who i really am", and this is so silly. i need to get over it.
in the meantime, it was pretty great to see that the lovely michelle of kingdom of style regularly wears shlubby clothes on her off-days as well.
what about you all? do you always look stylish?
p.s. i'm watching made about how this girl wants to be more feminine, but somehow this means she can't tell boys that she likes japanese culture. her coach is trying to get rid of all her hobbies so that she is somehow more attractive to guys she probably wouldn't want to date in the first place. the fuck? i hate mtv.